Miscarriage

Well its been a while since i have been on just a week ago i had a miscarriage it was one of the hardest things i have and had to ever go through. Ty and I have struggled a little bit but with time we and with the spirit we know that we will make it through since we have each other. I can't describe how much i really love knowing about the plan of salvation. It makes me feel a little better just know that someday that tyler and i will see our baby again. It makes me so grateful to be apart of the church and I love it dearly. I was almost 10 weeks along. I started having pains in my stomach started spotting but i didn't think nothing of it but everytime i went to see a doctor all they would say was there was nothing wrong with me and that i was healthy i couldn't believe what i was hearing i knew deep down that there was something wrong and yet no one was doing a thing about it. I will say this Tyler and I refuse to go back on base for care again. If only we had known sooner about this problem maybe we could have prevented it. No one should ever have to go through a miscarriage but no one really understands what someone goes through unless they have been there themselves. I had a girl that actually said its been one week aren't you over it yet? so i started crying. I know that deep down inside i can see that baby again someday but for now i must move forward. Well Tyler and I are going up to Utah to see our families for Thanksgiving and for one thing I just can't wait to see everyone. Hope you all have a good Thanksgiving. :)

New things

Wow it's been a while since i got on this thing. Its been pretty busy around here. First of all I got a full time job as a nanny and I love it in the summer i will be going to school and taking a photography class which im so excited for. Well just a couple weeks ago my husband and I finally moved into a much bigger apartment :) The kitchen by far is better then the first one we had i mean in the last one you could get down on all fours and touch everything it was horrible soon tho i will be putting up pictures on here so you can see our new place. Tyler and I will be going back up to Utah for Thanksgiving and for Christmas. I can't tell you how excited I am to finally see everyone in my family and all my friends. Im having my first Nephew which will and is on Tylers side :) he will be born at the end of this month it will be great for Heather and Patrick. Well i don't have much of anything else to say. Have a good day!

Its gets boring here

Do You ever get those days when your just so bored you clean all day or sleep? Well that's how i have been feeling lately. I mean i don't have a job and once again I'm not going to school this fall. Hopefully in the spring i can go the hard part is getting money to go. I was listening to the song Airplanes by Paramore and B.O.B earlier and i was just thinking about wishes. There are just some days when i could use one of those. Lately I have been wishing so many things but the only way i can get my wish to come true is fight for it and make it happen. It's hard living in a state where i don't know anyone and i try to be friends with the people in Ward at church but they always seem to make it awkward for Ty and I. We missed one day of church and they sent the Missionaries and the first or second counslor of the bishop-bric over ty and i weren't to happy. We were up in Utah and they knew that but hey at least they are watching right haha. Colorado springs is very beautiful but as of lately i have been so homesick and missing my family and my friends. Once i find a job ill get friends but with the economy you just never know what your going to get. Well anyways that's pretty much it.

July fourth weekend with the family in Utah

so im finally putting up pictures from the fourth of July this year 2010. Tyler and i had the opportunity to go see our families and friends which was just awesome :) We nly had 3 days to spend with them which was plenty of time for the two of us to go out and have fun while it lasted. July fourth was just awesome tho. We had a barbecue over at My grandmas house which the food was great it was nice because not only was it just my family it was ty's family my sisters husbands family as well that was there so we had a really big group.

my awesome adventure at Elitch Gardens

A couple weeks ago Tyler and I finally went on our little honeymoon to Elitch Gardens which used to be known as six flags. To me the Amusement park was just like the one back at home just as big and just as fun. We pretty much had a blast there :) well for one thing ever since i got married i have just enjoyed so much more since im with the one that im meant to be with. But im just so excited because Tyler and I are going home to visit for the fourth of july which will be really awesome.

My daily adventure

Well today i have been married for two weeks dont worry i will put up pictures of my apartment here shortly. The apartment i live in is actually pretty nice considering although the kitchen has been one heck of an adventure. On my first day here i was cleaning out the cupboards and the fridge i dont think the last people that lived here even cleaned i mean i found daddy long legs in the cupboard one the was alive and almost flipped. There were bugs all over the place i mean it was dusty there was a spider web in one of them and in the fridge we found a huge crack it looked like someone punched it. So as the days have gone on i found little bugs every so often crawling on our floor. so here is a picture of our kitchen as you can see that is my husband tyler lol isn't he just cute.

My wedding day

So i just recently got married which was the most wonderful experience ever. Tyler and i got married May 15 2010 in the Logan Temple and may i just say that it was so beautiful in there i can not explain the feeling that i had while being in there. My sister looked so pretty in her outfit that my mom and i had chosen out for her i love my sister very much and cant wait to see her and my family again.

a good time with my sister :)

today i had a great day with my sister. I went over to her house and we finished the shoe that she had made me for my bridal shower we also watched baby mama. I love that movie haha. here is the shoe that my sister started making me :) isn't it cute

My talk in Sacrament

so this week has been interesting yesterday I had to give a talk in sacrament and well i guess it went pretty good but ill tell you what it certainly was nerve wrecking. My talk had to be ten minutes long and i don't think it was that long once i started giving my talk. By the time i was finished talking i was so relieved to sit down. I haven't given a talk like that since i was 15 but it didnt have to be 10 minutes it only had to be 3 to 5 minutes long. It was although a good experience.

just a fun night with the girls :)

ok so in these photos are my friends we had such a great night last night there was just a lot of laughing my favorite picture is when we took a picture of our feet lol we tried to make a star but as you can tell that didn't work out so well :)

so the girls and i have this awesome story when we worked at the DI (Desseret Industries) there was a pineapple candle that came in and me and Amands both smelled it the smell was so good that she and i started getting high off of it that we were laughing the whole time at work and every time a supervisor walked passed us lol we would start laughing good memories so my friend ended up buying me that candle for good memories

heck yeah party with the girls tonight lol

So my maid of honor and I decided that we should have a bridal shower/bachlorette party at my house. It's going to be awesome I'm pretty excited actually but first Amanda and i are going to go tanning later this afternoon i went tanning once with my sister when i was like 14 i haven't been since but since this is for a special occasion we are going to go lol. So I'm having around 12 of my girl friends come over tonight and just party the night away. We are having a party with all the girls who can't come to the actual bachlorette party next week so I'm pretty much having two parties. But only one more week til i get married it is going to be wonderful

heck yeah i love this song

When i look at you

So Tyler and I have been engaged since march 1st. We are getting married next week on may 15th in the Logan Temple which is very exciting for the both of us :) Tyler and I both met through my best friend stacey which is his sister. It's weird how he and i ended up together but really awesome. I was dating a different guy who no one in my family really liked him but my mom i liked him til he got all serious on me and i wanted a guy who i could actually be myself around and could tell jokes to whether they were funny or not. And he kept telling me i needed to grow up. Well as my heart was telling me it was time to let him go my friend stacey told me that Tyler was leaving for basic training in the Air Force. Stacey has always known that i have liked her brother and her and her family tried setting us up during high school but he thought it would be weird to date his sister's friend. Well i was talking to Tyler 2 weeks before he left but i also didn't know that he had decided to go into the Air force he didn't tell me because i was dating someone else at the time and didn't think that i would care. His sister called me the day before he left and told me i should go over and say good bye well my mom decided to have me take the guy i was dating and i had been considering on telling tyler how i felt about him that day but i couldn't well i knew he liked me a lot because of the look he had given to my boyfriend at the time i thought it was funny. I had given Tyler a hug that night before i left but had this feeling and just a push telling me that i found him. well kevin broke up with me and i had the impression that i should write him a letter and before i knew it he and I hooked up after a phone call. well that's the story of how tyler and i got together :)

These are my engagement pictures

Engagement Pictures